Saya nak kahwin.
Bila nak kahwin ni lah, banyak benda nak buat?
Contohnya, panjat gunung.
Contohnya, jadi sukarelawan di Darfur.
Contohnya, gain some working experience in California.
Now, I can't only think about myself, but I have to think about my other half too. Decisions must be made together because he is going to be a part of my life.
The ugly side of this is, sometimes I think the 'I-need-to-think-about-him-too' is tiresome. Tedious. It's making life more complicated.
I would've just said, "Yes, I am definitely going!" instead of, "I need to think about it first."
Sure, I've always tell people I hate living abroad. But I am not stupid to let this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity slip away. And the money is pretty good.
Hmm...Is this an alarm going off? Is this a sign? Should I re-think about marriage?
I'm pretty sure I want to get married. It is just that I WANT MANY THINGS AT THE SAME TIME and WHY CAN'T I HAVE ALL THE THINGS I WANT NOW?
Oprah said, "You can have all the things you want, just not at the same time."
As tempting as it sounds, I hope I will do just as well in Malaysia. Who says my CV won't stand out, who says I can't be successful if I didn't have the California work experience!
At least, I'll get paid in the same amount. I must think of how much money I could spend with the same amount of money in Malaysia!
20 hours ago