decision.

Am I stubborn for deciding to stand by him? Am I foolish?

It looks like many want me to break it off with him. The problem is, the majority of these people do not know him like I do, half of them haven't even met/ talk to him yet!

I used to stereotype his kind too, but my perspective changed after I met him.

The people, family and friends (and their families too, can you believe it!), the young and the elderly, I know they meant well, to protect me from harm. Some experienced it themselves, some even came from the same kind (now changed), but somehow, they still can't convince me to leave.

How can I walk away from him when I don't have a concrete reason to do so?

He is not bad, he does not abuse me, he does not even smoke, all he does is to love me. Why is it wrong for me to be happy with him?

And I am sure his kind isn't all that bad. Kenapa sebab nila setitik, mesti rosak susu sebelanga? Aren't we all the same?

On the other hand, I don't want to be the person everybody will be pointing his finger at and snickered, saying, "Hah! I told you so, but you never listened!"

Am I blinded by love? Or am I being too optimistic? Or am I simply holding on to something that won't happen, won't change?

But it's wrong to judge a book by its cover. That, I know.

I am happy now. Is this two-year-happiness just a phase? Will it get worse if I stay? Am I being too hopeful?
I know I'd be miserable if I lose him. Will I ever move on if we can't be together?

I hate influences. They make me doubt the choice I've made, the decision I thought is best for me.

I don't know now.

I am not asking for him to change. I've accepted him, I like him the way he is, but why can't they? There's really nothing wrong with him!

Dilemma, dilemma...