hair problems

Since I was small, my hair was always kept short because Mother said long hair only suits adults.
Plus, my hair was wavy curly (now it is straight wavy, I don't know how that happened!), so Mother knows best, Mother won't let my hair grow.

I believe I was an ugly kid. I look soooo much better now.

Anyway, as I got older and learned how to demand and disobey, I still cut my hair short because I wanted to be different, I wanted to change the world's perception towards ladies with short hair. I always tried to opt for Meg Ryan's hairstyle. I wanted to prove women with short hair are beautiful as well! I didn't want to be a typical Malaysian girl: fair, long, straight, coloured hair, slim, petite...

Mother said, "A teenager shouldn't keep her hair too long or she would look older than she is!" and now, I am in an adult in my twenties, I still believe her. I also believe I am still a teenager. That's why I keep my short because I don't want to look older than I already am!

However, I also notice old women tend to keep their short too!

I am panicking.

My hair now is just below my shoulders and I am planning to keep my hair long. Why? Because I want to know how I'd look like with long hair. Because I am sick of having my hair short. Because I don't want to use a wig for my big day. And of course, because I don't want to look like an old Chinese auntie or an old Datin...

I love to let my hair down, but...
- my hair always fall into my food.
- whenever I brush my teeth, my toothbrush will catch a few strands of my hair.
- sometimes, the person behind me in the public transportations accidentally pulls my hair when he/ she grabs the handle of my seat. I forgive them by telling myself they are probably short- or long-sighted.

*Sigh* Do you guys face the same problems?