Been secluding myself from any social interactions because I think it's best for now. Lunch hour, I'd rather go home. Isolate myself from gossips.
Yesterday, I decided to get a haircut which I did not like. Stupid hairdresser. It's always a gamble, me and my hair.
Cried on the way home and partially blamed my husband for my hair- if he had taken me sooner, I'd probably get a different result.
Men. They don't get it when I'm upset over a small thing like that, it means there is a bigger issue behind it.
Men. So my husband said, it was my fault because I didn't tell my hairdresser that I was not happy. He said, I should've told him what I wanted because we are the customers and we pay him.
Yeah, I don't need all that logic that I already made sense of.
So I snapped and cried even more.
Arrived home and got a big, warm hug from him.
I was not crying just because of my hair, I cried because I needed to cry. I was miserable at work.
When he just let me cry on his shoulder, it was best. Felt a lot better afterwards. Terus boleh senyum senyum dah. Agak psycho. Haha.
To say that I hate everybody at work, is an exaggeration.
There's this fat boss of mine, who is so knowledgable. Can be temperamental at times but he's toned down a lot after returning from Hajj. One time, I received a blow from him but he personally called me back to apologize.
Hajj does change people.
Anyway, that fat boss of mine joked and explained some things to me, encouraged me to further my studies, so I was happy for a while.
Remember that nice, father-figure Dato' that I mentioned before? Saw him and we smiled to each other.
Just a smile.
I want to become like him. Someone who has an impact on another's life, even though you are not particularly doing anything significant.
Agak-agak, kalau I lalu dan senyum to some random people, do you think I can save a life, do you think I can make his/ her day?
Agak-agak, is there someone out there who feels like that about me?
9 hours ago