Remember that bag I wanted? Last weekend, it was back on the official website. Decided to ask FV if I can order through FV instead.
Today, poof, gone again...
Why have I not learnt my lesson yet? Kalau dah suka, terus beli!!! Paham tak Ectopy?!!!
Bukan rezeki I lah tu...*Cries again*
Anyway...Work has not been better. I am still on a war with this certain colleague. I thought, I already let it go. But just now, another colleague of mine came and reported her comments about me. She said I was lazy.
First, she accused me of being insincere. Now, lazy?
Okay, I need to remind myself not to take it too seriously. Because, as long as I didn't witness what she actually said, this all could still be a rumour/ miscommunication. So, why crowd my mind with it?
Secondly, I hope there 's a hikmah behind all this. Like, perhaps, Allah will answer all my prayers. Let me make my prayers as my weapon.
My next strategy is to avoid all direct contact with her. Not that I'm scared, berani kerana benar, but I don't want to make things worse. Biarlah Tuhan yang tunjuk, I'm in no position to prove her wrong.
And, I hope people would stop telling me what she thinks of me. Everytime I started to forget about her and enjoy my work again, somebody would come and tell me news that would spoil my mood. So, I want to forget and don't want to know. In this case, ignorance is definitely bliss!
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Tadi, I baca a Malaysian gossip blog. The visitors are bitching about this actress. I think it's unrealistic when we expect public figures to be friendly, happy and ready all the time! Like, hello, you yourself wouldn't be friendly, happy and ready for a photo session with your fans all the time too!
Susah jadi orang famous ni.
Buat baik pun, ada je yang tak kena...
Lepas tu, every single photo nak kena komen. I pun ada juga gambar dengan anjing. Ada juga gambar dengan non Muslims who are holding alcohol. Ada juga gambar dalam church.
To me, shouldn't be an issue. Tapi, bila celebrities yang buat, mulalah ada komen komen yang dot dot dot. Like, seriously?
Like that gymnast lah. Kesian dia...
To me, the best way to preach is by showing good examples. Setakat nak komen-komen ni, please lah, sometimes you yang nampak bodoh.
When you show good examples, orang sendiri yang tertarik dengan you. You tak payah susah susah nak berdebat.
I've never told anyone how I decided to wear tudung. I think my previous boss played a big part of it, I wish to tell him how I respect him and look up to him so much, that he really did leave a mark in my heart.
See? My boss is a guy, dia tak pakai tudung and dia tak pernah sekali pun komen about my appearance. He never indirectly or sarcastically tried to judge me or change me. He just did his work, talked about his experiences and taught me.
But I sendiri yang malu. And after my confinement, I came to work with a headscarf. He just smiled at me. Nothing more or less.
I don't know about you, but that's the kind of people I want to idolize.
Until now, whenever I thought about my hijrah, I thought about my boss. I selalu rasa he should know what he did to me, tapi I malulah...Haha.
Dulu-dulu, I selalu rasa pakai tudung ni won't define your heart. Sebab I selalu encounter orang yang I tak respect tapi pakai tudung. But my ex-boss managed to change my perception, even without him even knowing.
Dan itulah dakwah yang terbaik.
