Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Lately, I've been thinking about how lucky I am and how I live a rather comfortable life. I am relatively problem-free compared to other people I met, at work especially, or people I read about.

Somehow, it bothers me a little bit because I was taught that the more you are tested, the stronger you are, the closer you'd become (hopefully) to God.

Well, oh well, be careful of what you wish for. Today, I am being tested big time.

I came home to see the freezer door was not properly closed, with about a hundred packets of 4 oz of breast milk in each packet (stocks which took months to build), all melted.

Auto-tears activated.

What am I to do?

Called my husband, gave him a short description and succumbed to my depression.
Went to sleep, hoping to wake up from a nightmare.

My husband thought we could salvage them by refreezing.
Men- how simple their mind is.

I wouldn't have bawled my eyes out if it was that easy!

Sigh. Only a person who had gone through the same experience could possibly understand how I am feeling right now.

My baby is taking at least 12 oz during the day. Nowadays, I make no more than 12 oz per day.

I guess, there's nothing else to do except to go back to having sleepless, interrupted nights, just to pump out more milk. Please, God, please let the milk flow...

They are still in the freezer, I don't have the heart to throw them away yet. Perhaps it's better to ask my husband to do it.

Oh, my precious liquid gold.

Sabarlah wahai hati...


azya said...

oh dear... i do understand your feeling....sebab i pun penah mengalaminya... huhu sedihhhhh.... kalau ingat sekarang pun boleh nangis huhu..
btw, jgn buang susu u tu... tapi jadikan air mandian for ur baby..isi je dlm tub and mandikan ur baby with it.. its good for the skin :) even some of my friends yg sangat 'mewah' dgn susu pun buat mcm tu thout their baby still bf..

Anonymous said...

i have read that fenugreek helps to promote breast milk.

Hampshire Mummy said...

Ouch! Malang tak berbau indeed. Wishing you all the very best in making a new stash. Perhaps consider investing in a mini freezer?

Sending you lots of moo moo mummy vibes.

ectopy said...

azya, never thought to bathe my baby with milk .good idea ! maybe I can mix some to the puree , too terpaksa introduce food now now

anon, am taking fenugreek again now :)

HM, I thought I wanted to buy a mini freezer but thinking of my milk supply, I dont think I will use the freezer enough. I was wrong, should've invested in the first place!

Anonymous said...

I went through the same thing. I tried to save the milk and give it to my baby. Eventually, my baby was warded a week of drinking spoil milk. I had to feed the baby with formula milk instead. It was very depressing times but have to redha. I bath with the milk instead. Anyway, I managed to breast feed my baby about 1 year and 6 months before I was pregnant with the second baby eventhough not fully breast feed. Hope this comment helps.