Hello...

Been meaning to write but somehow I've been lazy to switch on the laptop. Haha...

Basically, I am a few shy weeks away from entering term pregnancy and I am still split on wishing whether to deliver earlier or later. Earlier means more puasa to qada, and later means more work to do...I know there's really nothing I can do except to wait for things to naturally happen, but you know, what you wish can turn into a doa.

So, lets just doa for what's best for me. Senang.

In terms of baby shopping, we have managed to save money and splurge on some stuff. I estimated the money that we have spent is around RM2-3k, which is not too bad, yeay! Sometimes, whenever I see expensive baby stuff, I always think about the less fortunate. How lah on earth they could afford all these...

One of my euphoric moments is when I find super bargain things, I'd feel like a robber. Haha! My husband is the one who is ever so willingly spend without much thinking. I, on the other hand, am more careful with money. So, sorry lah baby, your Mommy is quite stingy, and trust me, it's for your own good, I want you to grow up appreciating the penat lelah, things just don't fall from the sky!

Before this, when I was a teenager and money was tight, I always wonder how someone could spend so much on stuff that you can get cheaper. So, I used to think, bila I ada duit nanti, I would still buy the cheap things so I can buy many of them! I felt smart...Haha.

But now, I understand, people who buy the more expensive things do so because they could. Contohnya, macam I kan, pemikiran I macam ni

Siri bercakap dengan diri sendiri:

Me: Waahh...Mahalnya benda ni! I nak beli yang murah-murah je, bukannya baby nak pakai lama-lama pun nanti.

Me: Waahh...Tengok, murahnya ni!

Me: Tapi takkanlah I nak beli yang murah gila ni. Kesian dekat baby I...Bukannya I tak mampu, nanti orang kata tak sayang anak pulak. Buat malu je, mak bapak kerja elok, tapi kedekut.

Me: Fine, kita beli yang inilah! Tak murah dan tak mahal sangat...

Yes, now I understand, and I try not to judge people. People buy things because they can afford it even though there are cheaper options around. But when people spend on things they can't afford, itu namanya tak sedar diri!

You know what, even though the baby is still in my tummy, I can't wait for another pregnancy. Haha. I want many children. I want them to take care of me when I am old. Time is ticking and I shouldn't wait no more...My husband and I are getting old...Plus, what's the point of spending on the expensive baby equipments if you are only going to use them once! (Man, you guys must be thinking that I was so deprived during my childhood, haha).

Yesterday, my boss told me that my baby will be an active boy because I am so active when I am carrying him. Nak buat macam mana, it's the demand that comes with the job. Like I've always said, I love what I am doing (just not the workplace). One of the reasons is because it keeps me grounded. I need the constant reminder for the sake of my own humanity.

Okay, I've ran out of things to say. Will write again soon! Hopefully, something more interesting than the above. This post is boring, I know, I'm sorry...

I am currently at Mother's house, supposedly doing some shopping for the arrival of the baby. But yesterday was spent with my nieces, OMG, these kids...Pening kepala I tau.

They are still cute, but older, hence, more demanding, kuat merajuk, lebih strong willed aka degil, easily distracted (short attention span) and super active for a pregnant woman to handle.

Sorang nak pergi pet shop, sorang nak naik pony ride, sorang nak makan ice cream, sorang merajuk sebab sorang lagi ambil sudu dia, sorang nak pergi kencing, sorang nak Lego, sorang nak Barbie Doll, sorang nak Monster High (this one, I tell you, umur baru 4 tahun tapi obsess dengan Monster High, I am like, oiii, tu cerita budak besar lahhh!!!!)

Last-last balik rumah, my husband yang pengsan. Haha!

Niece A is the only child, clueless about pregnancy and stuff, so when she saw my belly, she went, "Besarnya perut Auntie Ectopy!"
Me: Yes...Do you know what's inside?
Niece A: I don't know. Tapi perut Papa 90 kali lagi besarrrr!!!

Hahahahaha!

Niece B semi gently pat on my tummy (more like knocking on it) and said, "Ada baby dalam perut Auntie Ectopy!"
Me: Pandai...Yes, ada baby dalam perut Auntie Ectopy.
Niece B: Hari tu, saya pergi hospital dengan Mama. Mama kata baby keluar ikut 'honey'! (Then, she pointed to her 'honey')

True, but still funny for a four-year-old kid to acquire that knowledge! Hahahahaha!

Anyway, today pulak, my husband made plans for his work, so I am stuck in the house. Actually, I am quite unhappy because, well, this cuti is for me lahhhhh! But at the same time, I know that he has to do this because he needs to earn money to support us. How can I resist...

The weird part is, my husband is not giving me the green light to explore the market (ehem, the malls) by myself. Aik? Tiba-tiba je...Tak pernah pernah dikongkong sebegini! He said since I am pregnant, it will be quite dangerous for me to wander off by myself. Say whattttt!!!

Whatever....

And because of that, I've spent my morning watching Youtube on the baby essentials and whatnots etc sampai berpinar pinar mata.

Tiba-tiba terpengaruh dengan how much stuff we actually have to buy! Man, all this while, I have underestimated this little person that will totally change our routines!

Speaking of my baby, actually, I sangat-sangat jarang pergi check-up. Next week baru nak appointment and scan yang number 4. Padahal dah pregnant berbulan-bulan. Bukanlah tak excited ke apa, tapi... I memang don't mind. I actually enjoy the part of 'surprise me later, make me wonder'. Nanti dah lahir, boleh lah I tenung dia, ikut muka Mommy ke, muka Daddy...I can admire those ten tiny little fingers and toes, tiny little ears and nose...

I've been having a pretty smooth-sailing pregnancy so far. I am afraid that I'll have a traumatic birth experience. Ye lah...Orang cakap, kalau masa pregnant tak ada alahan, nanti masa nak bersalin susah...

I am not just worried about giving birth though.

I have been living a good life. I somehow always get most of the things I want in my life. I've encountered some obstacles, but nothing so distressing. Orang cakap, kalau Tuhan sayang, mesti banyak cabaran. Hhmm...

I am afraid that my future challenges will be too great for me to handle. Or that, I'll end up having too much luxury in my life that I will forget, just like the Pharaoh who forgot his Creator.

That is very.very scary...