It's true. Time heals most things.

I knew this, I know this, and I will always know this.

But why is it so hard in the beginning?

It still hurts, but it hurts less now.

Now, tell me, is time the healer, or is it acceptance?

Look at my children, I wish them all the patience in the world, if they ever encounter hardships. I wish them all the strength in the world, to keep going even though they fail again and again.

Well, well...

I found all the stuff I've lost. Such a miracle, right?

Found my sunnies in my husband's car- never trust a guy when they say they've searched. Sure, you search, but you don't see!

And, because we are in a long distance relationship, I don't get to be in his car often. Even during Raya Haji, we mostly travelled in his other car. But, I finally found my sunnies in his car 2 days ago, when we were on our way to Legoland. I even planned to go to Singapore to buy a new pair! Haha!

(We didn't go to Singapore because kids insisted to stay at Legoland for 3 freaking days!)

Did you know what I did to locate my sunglasses? I even texted a restaurant owner, because I thought I left them at a restaurant. Oh, God, the effort!



I also didn't lose my house keys. And I found my name stamp. One of my dear staff kept it in her drawer for me, but we didn't get to see each other often. Then, I finally got it, but lost it again after 2 days! Ugh!

I knew it was somewhere in my workplace. And finally, 2 weeks ago, I found it back!

And why, am I being such a miserable lady over a name stamp? Because if I really lost my name stamp, I have to make an official police report in case someone else misuse it. What a hassle, right...Luckily it is now safe and sound in my hands.




And the other real update is...The one that prompted me to actually write tonight is...
This sad, jealous, unsure feeling, whether I am making the right decision, of not sending my eldest to a private school.

Half of the people around me are sending their kids to private schools, and they already began their terms. I feel a little bit left behind, actually. Sigh.

I know I shouldn't compare. I mean, they are kids. All kids can learn. But seeing the excited parents about the Business class they will be taking, the Montessori approach, some even already in Year 2 although they are only 6 years old...

I mean, it is a really competitive world out there. But it makes me question, is this really the best for my kid? Is the public school system really failing?

I remember, when I was a kid, I always wanted to finish first, and I wanted to finish fast (no skip year for my batch). And I got so jealous if I saw someone younger, studying in the same class. Most obvious when I was doing A-Levels, these kids from private schools, International students, barely 16, sitting for the same exam as me...

I was like, what the hell, sudahlah muda, bijak, cantik, kaya pulak tu! Life is unfairrrr!!!

I finally got over the feeling when I was in university. Because, they were some really older students from Canada and the States in my class, and they made me feel better about myself. Haha!

Anyway, this is not about me...Because you know, we may be could afford my kids education now, but what about in the future? Maybe it's better if I save the money for the university instead.

Even now, we are already paying
RM350 for kindergarten
RM300 for swimming class
RM80 for Taekwandi
RM400 for mengaji class

And this is only for 1 kid, per month. They are expensive. And I plan for Music class, Art class and Cooking class!

Macam mana nak ada ramai anak macam ni...





I turned out pretty fine, I guess. Went to a normal public school. Never had special classes, I don't have any special skills...
Art? Belajar sendiri.
Swimming? Belajar sendiri. (Curi-curi dengar what the teacher was telling)
Masak? Belajar masa universiti.
Mengaji? Belajar dengan jiran sebelah rumah.
Don't know music, don't know any forms of Martial Arts, sucks at Sports...

But I'm quite alright...

But, no! My kids must be better than their parents!