Just now, before they went to bed

Baby H: Mommy, I'm scared if you die because I will miss you (hugs me)

Me: Awww...Don't worry, Baby H. I will not leave you. Because I love you so much.

Baby H: If you die, I'm going to kill myself because I want to go to heaven with you.

Me: Awww, don't do that. I want you to live and do all the things you always want. Like, have boyfriends, get married, be a pet groomer, be a vet. I want you to be happy. I will be your angel and take care of you. And Abang K and Daddy will love you and take care of you.

Abang K: What about me?

Me: I'll be your angel, too...I'll make sure the devil won't tell you to do bad things.

Baby H: But I want to kill myself, like this! (Stabs herself)

Me: No...You will grow up and make me very proud, okay?

I hope I won't get dementia or Alzheimer's disease. Having memories is the most beautiful gift a person could have. I want to always remember all the good stuff in my life. I want to look at my grown children and remember these moments when they were kids.